Sight-seeing!
I’m currently testing out how well wordpress works with on opera mini for my blackberry, thanks to the hour and thirty minute train-ride back to Waukegan. My pops and step-ma came out for a day of sight-seeing and a weekend of non-ohio scenary. We went downtown and saw quite a few of the sights, as well as the raggae bands at the music festival at millenium park. They finally got a taste of some authentic chicago deep-dish at Luke’s, a street down from the Sears Tower (get the signature pizza if you ever stop by the place). I’ll have some pictures up (provided by my new camera!) sometime tonight.
A lot of bullshit has happened over the past few months regarding my marriage. In case of anyone that’s been in the dark, Jessica had and accident and miscarried then proceeded to inform me that she’s been miserable with me for a while and now wants a divorce. Apparently my humor and demeanor has changed (deteriorated according to her) so much over the past few months that she can’t handle it anymore. Three months, that’s got to be a fucking record! Pleading and begging was to no avail, and I’m slowly coming to the conclusion that maybe its a sign from some asshole of a god, and that the whole thing was just a joke in his eyes, and something she wasn’t aware of the workings, but also that after as much I’ve tried to play things over that I might just be better off dealing with my ships than with her and realize what’s important and what’s erroneous in life. It really pains me to think of this whole situation as something I’ve wanted nothing of and tried to avoid during my whole relationship with her and it happened regardless, but I find it increasingly hard every single day to realize that this is by far my greatest folly in life.
I’ve come to accept my lack of understanding as something that will turn into a true lesson learned and hopefully someday I’ll benefit from this at least to an amount equal to what I’ve lost.
July 15th, 2009 at 02:23
Alex the humor thing is the last thing you want to do in a time like this. Dont listen to what dad has been saying about jess because its bullshit. Try reasoning things out with jess if you really want to save your marriage. talk to her more and dont listen to any one
July 18th, 2009 at 18:10
LOVE the pic widget!!!
As far as the rest of it all, believe me, I know – remember where I was a year or two ago. TIME! Give it time, but keep your focus on what is ahead of you. Smile, learn to love it, absorb it & deal with it positively.